this is just more information about me!
this website is a digital scrapbook and journal of sorts, so it will never be very organized.

i go by wynn or lux (+others) online, which are essentially internet personas. in real life, i am a mixed and disabled person, which influences how i move through the world. i am also bisexual and bigender, and those are contingent upon each other. i would not be bisexual without being bigender and vice versa, and i'm welcome to talking about that! see links to figure out where to find me!

my online activity depends on a lot of things. i am not very open about my mental health except to make the disclaimer that my front-facing internet presence and mannerisms vary sporadically. things also get deleted and/or overhauled VERY often. i am known to leave discord servers especially randomly. it's generally nothing personal. no one is required to let me back into spaces, but it does mean a lot to me when that happens.

i am an aspiring media major, focusing on communications and editing media of all sorts! my strongest suit would be editing for writing, but i also have experience in video and photo editing as well. obligatory "i do not dream of labor", but genuinely i would feel very fulfilled if i were able to be a part of communications at any level. i've dropped out of college twice (for personal reasons), so before this venture, i was an art major first, and a psychology major most recently. i've had a lifelong interest in the three things i've pursued and am always up for conversations about any of them!

on the side, i'm working on my more creative-centered dreams, namely working on my writing projects and opening commissions, both of which are under the links section of this page! both of these things are perpetual works in progress, so i'll update that accordingly.

so, how did i end up here? i'm not a coder and i never have been and i've never claimed any different. it had all kind of come to a head upon realizing that i really don't care to use traditional "social media" outside of small community-based circles like tiny discord servers and other types of small groupchat-like settings. my social media usage has dwindled over the years, with a couple of accounts still lingering around on websites and apps that i actually enjoy using.

like a lot of people my age, i grew up with nearly unrestricted internet access from the time that i was about 8 or 9 (awesome parenting!). i made a lot of decisions that would make current-me throw up—namely putting way too much personal information regarding my physical and mental health and my actual preteen-face on publicly available accounts.

at first, i was a chronic lurker, watching online communities from the "outside", so to speak, rarely engaging with any comment of my own. i was constantly on youtube, fanfiction.net, quora, livejournal, etc... name any popular website from the late 2000s and entire 2010s, i was probably there! my online privacy got spun on its head upon making my own tumblr blog in 2012, where i would talk pretty freely about my personal life. i had way too much information on the poorly-coded pages of my blog.

because of this, my attitude toward my own internet privacy has been forever skewed. while i'm fully aware of and disgusted by the predatory nature of activity-tracking and its encroaching prevalence, i kind of meet this with a certain level of resign toward myself, knowing that a lot of my information has already been so available. i am far more private now, but i can't change the naive decisions of my past self.

something that has changed is my attitude toward my internet presence! as a wee wynn, i was so fixated on the concept of "internet popularity" which ultimately made me miserable. nowadays, i stick to small groups of friends and sites i consider more akin to digital scrapbooks, much like what i'm trying to achieve by making a neocities site! i am not made to chase something at the cost of my self-confidence. it was rather silly of me to think otherwise!

all of the information i leave here now are things that i am actually comfortable with people knowing, especially behind the anonymity of this format :)